Wordless #9

Cry cry, but don't cut too deep,
Try try, but don't stop so soon.
Listen, sing and move.
But, don't be tired.
Until you feel
good😊

H.E.L.P

I don't know how to react or to express my feelings.

I'm sad. I'm broken. I want to cry. But I can't. I have to be strong. There's too much happening in my life. I can't think properly. My inside already died. I don't know what to do. 

Need help.

Why this happen in my life? What can I do? Move on? I overthink a lot until I can't have a proper sleep because every night I will think, think and think. 

I'm sad. Really really sad.

And I also deactive my Instagram. I need rest. A long rest.

Any motivation that can reduce it?

H.E.L.P me. 

Wordless #8

Well, hello. 

Randomly writing again. As usual, every month. Once in a month, maybe😅

Being busy with work and the other stuffs. Well, have a time to write but being lazy is superrrr annoying. Can you feel me? HAHA. And also had a many things to settle down. 

So, here another my wordless. Happy reading!😏

"Even the good people, the ones you dream of meeting, fuck up. People aren’t perfect and loving someone means handing them a gun and trusting them not to shoot you. But we’re all human and sometimes we get scared and we panic, accidentally pulling the trigger. That doesn’t mean that they don’t love you… it just means that Life doesn’t come with an instruction manual and sometimes we do the wrong thing. So do you banish them from your life and try to forget their existence when you might have made the very same mistake if the roles were reversed? If they shot you and are begging for forgiveness, willing to do anything to make it up to you, do you give them another chance and hope that the good you see in them will overcome the bad? Or do you just shut down and walk away?”— I guess it depends what kind of person you want to be - Jess Amelia

Wordless #7

"You leaving wasn't end of the world."

I thought it was. That day you left, I thought it was the end of the world. But I eventually stopped crying and I got up off the floor and I woke up the next morning. It was not the end of the world, the sun had not exploded, nor had the continents been swallowed by the ocean.

I thought you leaving was the end of the world, and maybe it was, in a way, you leaving was the end of that world, that world with you and me in it, together. I think that world still exists, just not here. But in this world I got out of bed and chose to wore a blue shirt and shorts and I made myself a coffee for breakfast and when I checked my phone and I didn't have a text from you, maybe it because I already blocked you :') it feel like the end of the world all over again.

I cannot tell you how many times it felt like the end of the world, like when I saw your face again and there was a vacant of feeling. I went home that day and I cried so hard I forgot to breathe. But I got up again and washed my face and I went on with my life because the world doesn't stop just because you broke my heart. The world doesn't work that way. If your heart is broken that is your problem and you have to find a way to make your own chest stop burning because the earth is going to keep revolving around the sun and time doesn't have just keep going onward.

Wordless #6

"If I've learned anything from life, its's that sometimes, the darkest times can bring us to the brightest places. I've learned that the most toxic people can teach us the most important lessons; that our most painful struggles can grant us the most necessary growth; and that the most heartbreaking losses of friendship and love can make room for the most wonderful people. I've learned that what seems like a curse in the moment can actually be a blessing, and that what seems like the end of the road is actually just the discovery that we are meant to travel down a different path. I've learned that no matter how difficult things seem, there is always hope. And I've learned that no matter how powerless we feel or how horrible things seem, we can't give up. We have to keep going. Even when it's scary, even when all of our strength seems gone, we have to keep picking ourselves back up and moving forward, because whatever we're battling in the moment, it will pass, and we will make it through. We've made it this far. We can make it through whatever comes next."

Wordless #5

Not to vague, but have you ever loved someone like truly loved them. And I mean with their flaws and everything and accepted that. Do you know how like consuming that is, and I’m not talking about romantic love. I mean the power that comes with loving someone with like everything you have. through the good and the bad. Through everything they’ve been through, through them doing things that shows how fundamentally flawed they are, and even in the sigh that you breathe that frustrates you, you can still feel it. How much you love them.

I’m Okay

*sigh*

Back again!😆 Dah habis study pun busy. Busy kerja weh sampai tak dan nak kemaskini blog & update. 

Hehe. But that’s not a problem. Datang sini sebab saja je nak luah sesuatu. 

Yup, sesuatu🙂

I wish I could turn back time to the good old days. Hahahaha, dah kenapa Syilah ni. Well, supposedly idk what happen to me actually. I’m not sad, not happy. I don’t know. Pernah tak korang rasa macam ni😂 Pelik kan. Yeah, I knew!

Actually nak story sikit. I met someone. Sekejap je. Tak lama. Lumrah manusia kalau sukakan seseorang, ye tak? Same goes to me. Hahahaha. Sebab tu orang cakap jangan dilayan sangat perasaan ni. So, here randomly whatsoever ayat ni for someone out there.

That’s how relationships are.
You meet,
You fall in love,
Then for whatever reason, you become strangers.
That’s how life is.
If there’s a first,
Then there’s a second,
And then another...
During the relationship, it may feel like it’ll last forever...
But at the moment of goodbye, it’s all futile.
That’s how breakups work.

 Seronok dapat berkenalan dengan seseorang. Tapi, biarlah kalau nak kenal seseorang tu kenal dengan betul-betul. Saja, pesanan untuk semua. Sebab, memang nak luah benda ni. Biarlah rahsia bagaimana ianya berlaku dan bagaimana ianya berakhir☺️

I wish I’m strong to moving forward and forget about past.

Wish me luck!😎

And...
Sometimes you just need to give it time, and you’ll know you’re over them or getting over them when one day you wake up and realize you haven’t thought of them in a week, or two weeks, or a month.